I’ve been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could’ve been.
I’ve been wallowing in my own confused and insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in.
I wanna feel the changes coming down.
I wanna know what I’ve been hiding in
Tool
Forty-six & 2
Are you a good person? Of course you are! Otherwise you would be in prison, or unemployed, or homeless, or perhaps you would be a politician! We all want to be like Job (in the Bible remember?), a generous, loving, law-abiding, moral person, who is perfect and upright and eschews evil.
But some people (not me of course!), have a Dark Side, and are selfish, destructive, immoral people who have nasty thoughts about putting dog poop on the front steps of neighbors who don’t mow their lawns or shovel their sidewalks, mounting twin 50 caliber machine guns on their cars and mowing down idiot drivers who slow down in the left lane on the way to work, and stealing the staplers of co-workers that make fun of them. These same people are lazy, stupid, and cowards besides. I don’t know anybody like this for sure, but I have my suspicions about many of you.
Your therapist no doubt has jacked up your prescriptions, and you should absolutely continue to take them, as well as get regular counseling! But I also think you might want to check out Carl Jung’s ideas on the Shadow, because yours is pitch black. Jung says that everyone has an unconscious shadow, and if they don’t acknowledge, understand and integrate their shadow side into their consciousness, their shadow will begin to project those negative characteristics the individual is hiding onto other people, and at times when you are anxious, under stress, or confused, your shadow might even take over your conscious ego. Just think of Beetlejuice – Hell, I’ll possess myself if I gotta’!
But the Shadow isn’t all bad, as it is not only those aspects of your personality you’d rather forget about, it is also the positive traits that you think you are not good enough for, or you think conflict with your cultural, religious, or community beliefs and standards. In many cases, the most creative and personally fulfilling aspects of your personality are hidden away in your shadow, and so making the effort to assimilate and integrate them into your consciousness can mean a stronger, confident, and meaningful life.
But it does take work, and it can be a bit scary – not that I would know anything about that! And Jung believed that this shadow work was an absolutely necessary first step in order to continue to become a fully conscious individual – perhaps it is time that you stop avoiding your dark side.
So say it once, say it twice, third times the charm!
Watch:
Is There A God? – https://youtu.be/JPo1bDrj6cA
I’ll Chew On A Dog! – https://youtu.be/UICgA-P67Zw
I’m A Good Man. A Good Man! – https://vimeo.com/312410933
The Shadow Self – https://vimeo.com/311020480
The Beast Within – https://youtu.be/YI8g8ll-QUA
How To Become Who You Are – https://youtu.be/gfyCzLbcAvk
The Power Of The Dark Side – https://youtu.be/co_dhIKUtGs
Listen:
I’ve Been Wallowing In My Own Confused And Insecure Delusions – https://youtu.be/GIuZUCpm9hc
The Kids Own This – https://youtu.be/mYKLvYGqaC0
You’re Fooling Yourself – https://youtu.be/AtzIWPeun7c
Hintergedanke – https://youtu.be/Jr_20uEVOiE
Read:
You Must Descend Before You Can Ascend – https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shadow_%28psychology%29
Mr. Hyde – https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Strange_Case_of_Dr_Jekyll_and_Mr_Hyde
The Hidden Power Of Our Dark Side – https://academyofideas.com/2015/12/carl-jung-and-the-shadow-the-hidden-power-of-our-dark-side/
I See Through The Lies Of The Jedi. I Do Not Fear The Dark Side As You Do – https://www.madinamerica.com/2012/02/why-anti-authoritarians-are-diagnosed-as-mentally-ill/